Things on the home front
J and I have been working on our relationship these past couple of weeks. I would be lying if I said it isn’t hard. Trust is the foundation of a relationship and when you fuck with it the chances are slim of being together… As far as fixing it.. It mainly consists of me taking it one day at a time. Considering both sources and focusing on communication. Fact: he doesn’t like to communicate. Solution: getting everything out on the table with a therapist. A third body that isn’t related to either one of us. So far so good. Not to mention more date nights were we loosen up and think more positively… Bowling night we laughed and lightly chatted about the future. These few wks before the baby have been focused on us before baby arrives.. It helps to have normal conversation that doesn’t involve diaper counts and what we still need. We are both burnt out. Life is so much more.
Do I fully trust him right now? No. He changed his cell phone number and doesn’t use the Internet when I’m not sitting next to him. He tells me where he is at every moment.. And did I mention that I broke his iPod that he was emailing girls on. Yea I beat that shit up with a baseball bat the moment I found them…. It’s not really what I really pictured of us. But I still love him and he isn’t a Bad person. His behavior was just so uncalled for.
No one said relationships were easy.
